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"long time" no see 12.18.2024 :: not THAT long alright... but alot has happened in the few days! but i'll just talk about today. i started my day awesome, i had to wait in front of the cold ass school OUTSIDE at like 6:30AM till 8:00, with no jacket...but i did have a cool digital camera to play with, i'll try to get some pictures onto here. and this guy drove up to my and my brother around 7:10 and told us we had swag...i can say he was probably talking about me! even though i had a really lame outfit today..and all my little brother had was MY jacket on and diddy jeans so....but i guess he liked it so cool! i'd assume he was dropping off his sibling cuz he seemed young..i'm very thankful for that though he made my day..then next i had a math test but i finished pretty quick and spent the rest watching corpse bride and slime videos with my friend..and skating videos (mike V and bam margera mostly) on my own time. then 2 periods ahead, health class.. i had to do a whole project ive had to do for 2 months..turned it in like a week late but it's something! when you procrastinate you choose last..that's my favorite incubus song,but clearly i don't take it's advice. and i got to watch spongebob with my 1 friend (cuz my only other friend in there was doing work...yeah i only have 2 friends in there boring) and continue more skating videos this time mostly kevin liedtke (i have a poster of him!) and rodney mullen. next period, i went to the counselor (not cuz im sped nor depressed...it's a long but sort of funny story, ask me about it if you don't already know.) and got to escape my HORRIBLE ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE band class i HATE SO MUCH with such a strong passion...and we just talked about video games and movies, see no sad stuff! and while she was looking out the door for like 3 minutes for a ugly christmas sweater contest... this 1 staff, dunno what he is just know hes staff and hes funny....i stuck out my tongue at him AND HE squat down and shook his head with his tongue out with the rock hands up.....what the fart..bro i can't stop laughing even thinking about it imagine how it was right after he did that and telling my friends about it... and i can't remember anything fun in the next period and lunch. BUT GYM WAS THE MOST SHIT and fun at the same time! we went to a playground (because we have a new campus and it has a whole playground it's so awesome it even has swings) and i spent the whole time on the merry go round with like 90% of the class although with only ONE friend because we have 2 classes in the gym and 1 class has like ALL my friends..well not all but a lot of them. but my class only has ONE. ONE BRO.... but hes a good friend so its alright...but i flew off of it 1 time and i was sitting on the ground brushing stuff off and laughing cuz it was actually really fun despite how i hit my head on a rock..and my ass out...and while i was sitting waiting for it to slow down so i could go back on THE FAT FUCK (i've mentioned him before but i'm not sure HERE. maybe on another blog, but he always tries to fight 1 of my friends and he's the one that tries to get political despite obviously knowing nothing) HE PUKED ALL OVER MY WHITE ETNIES.. my most precious prized shoes. and i JUST relaced them. i managed to get some off of the shoe but the lace has an orange spot now and there was a whole chunk of food on it bro..of course it did i bet it was the meal he had 20 minutes beforehand that fatass..i'm actually pissed at him for that and i'll always hate him more than i already did. and i even asked the coach if i could run back inside but i had to wait like another 15 minutes letting it SINK IN...and STAIN...and i have a few spare laces but i'm 1. too lazy to relace and 2. i don't want a lardboy puke covered spare shoelace. and.....not much else happened, i shared an earbud with a friend who was in another class, lots of visual kei but i love it a lot, and in science i got to listen to more deftones and watch spongebob and i walked my friend home that i do every day, and walked ALL the way back...which is like the opposite side of the..not even neighborhood js whole place

school and modelling 12.04.2024 :: so...i'm not going to school till all the way to december 11th, because they broke their roof..and still haven't fixed it.. which sounds nice but 1. i miss my friends... 2. they're totally taking time off christmas break or summer for this.. AND 3. THEY'RE SENDING US..NOT TO OUR SCHOOL BUT TO SOME ABANDONED SCHOOL??? well...i guess as long as it's not filled with mold and stuff which..i'd assume it was recently 'abandoned' so it's still fairly clean but..whatever... anyways, for the modelling part in that title, (what? did you think i was joining modelling school or something? it's just a short thing i have to say...) i see a lot of modeling agencies(?) trying to be unique and such with their models. and i enjoy the 'looks' of some of these people..but most of them just have no eyebrows and that's it. or they're asian with no eyelashes... not very unique when it's done a trillion times. say, if you wanna be unique in modeling world, why not get a fat guy with a neckbeard and pimples all over his face? you don't see that often in modeling, and you'd get praise all for having him on a stage! and those 'plus size + disabled' modeling things don't count because their outfits are UGLY. come on...they can't stand to choose their own outfits so at least give them something good looking... and you wanna know something? sure, i like how some of the stuff *looks* (when it's not a rag) but i truly hate big fashion brands like balenciaga, rick owens, versace, ect. selling basic ripped jeans for 3000 dollars all cuz of it's brand... i think anyone who isn't a rich bastard hates them all, except opium (in rap) fans i guess.. and i feel like a lot of their stuff (like rick owens, but more so balenciaga) is inspired by poverty and punk "fashions"...which is messed up if you consider their prices and what their 'brands' are basically for. i get that a lot of 'pieces' and such have 'meaning' but it's a bit hard to see that past the 42000 dollar price tag above those 3 trash bags...and most of the meanings are made up bullshit the 'designer' doesn't even experience, or truly see anyways.

more american words 12.03.2024 :: with the election just passing there's a lot of hatred for the american *people* which i think is..stupid, for inability to say a better word, it's the government (cliche to say a bit don't you think) that's worth hating, at least in my experience and most others...if you really see the american people for who they are inside, even with politics aside (despite how difficult it is for that..i'd say they're not intelligent enough for a lot of it if that makes any sense) you'd realize most of the people of america are the only thing saving the country/making it a good thing, youknow?

midnight again 12.01.2024 (technically 12.02) :: blocked off reasoning :: same as last time - read inside

nazis 11.30.2024 :: see,it's not just a diary..it's a place for me to write what i please! and heres this: you know what i don't like...when people say to kill all nazis..now i won't act like i've never said it, but i have...but think bro, about times where white supremacists and anyone in that group got out of that weird mindspace and became a loving person... don't those times make you happy? doesn't it make you happier than thinking of them all dying? i think we should try to change them... even if they don't want it (they don't know, obviously) instead of resorting to violence (or, well, i'm not against beating up white supremacists. give them a good beating...then teach them) the only time i'd say it's unforgivable is when they've committed murder..any kind of bigotry, could have murdered someone the same or completely different from them...or maybe just murdered without a set reason...rape and pedophilia, that's when i think they can't be forgiven...maybe changed but that's not what 'forgive and forget' refers to

midnight 11.29.2024 (technically 11.30) :: blocked off reasoning :: nsfw and personal - read inside

thanksgiving 11.28.2024 :: well...i haven't written anything here in the 2 days i created this site. and that's not from laziness! (or well, a bit laziness in my mind..my braincells have been resting) but for thanksgiving i had my first white thanksgiving...that's not in a bad sense it's just saying you know. and it was super yummy, or well the turkey was, and the pie.. i had 2 aunties make it, and the turkey was juicy and super good and my other aunt made pumpkin pie and that was super good. obviously there was more stuff but i won't waste finger-power in explaining it all. i played barbies with 1 of my little cousins (my only cousins in texas are all like a decade younger than me) because she has a TON and a TON of barbie clothes, so of course i had to dress some up and start barbie street-fights. there was another even younger cousin there, i argued with her about chicken vs turkey. i miss my cousins (and other family of course) in saipan, i'm gonna call them soon to see what they did for thanksgiving.. even though i'll be a bit late, since they celebrated yesterday (they're a day behind because of time zones) and i'm jealous because i heard they made ribs and stuff and my uncles bbq skills are the best, i trust the fatman to make my food the most, they know their stuff --little update-- I'M SO JEALOUS i video called my grandma and she's in a dinosaur museum IN JAPAN right now she's visited japan like 100 times at this point... she's went like 7 times this year and that's not including last year and the year before... how rich is she... or well i guess saipans kind of right next to japan.. BUT STILL. they had like huge animatronics and stuff.. and i called my mom but she's in her office right now online shopping..lame...so i asked her what's my uncles phone number (cuz i just had my phone wiped, no reason) and..no response, she leaves me on read or delivered for days but sends a video of a pug singing korn and leaves again.. alright MOTHER.. another thing i did was after i got home, i watched that new jack black christmas movie..'dear santa' it was alright..i LOVED ben stiller at the end, he's one of my favorite actors...(and also key) and i wish they had jack black with little fuzzy hoofs the whole movie, not in that fancy suit! and i think the whole post malone thing was pretty lame.. we also watched a few lonely island crew music videos like the ones with rihanna, lady gaga, michael bolton..ect